The future scares me. I have no idea what my life would look like few years from now. I have no idea for how long my loved ones would be with me — and that scares me. Just thinking about it gives me anxiety and even more so the added pressure of being the eldest child. "Would I be able to provide for my siblings from here on out?" has crossed my mind more than you could imagine. It scares me — the future scares me right now. But if I can read this again one day: I hope you're the opposite of what I constantly worry about. I hope you're someone that people can rely on (especially your family). Please tell me you're someone who can keep herself and everything together.