TODAY WAS SO GOOD!!! got 100’s on both my pre-lab and post-lab quiz, and aced my quiz in my asl class as well!! i went to the library after my lab and got a lot of work done!! so proud of myself for the improvement from yesterday to today, and pushing through the guilt of not doing enough. only bad thing was that my knee really hurt today, and i had to walk a bunch. as well as my lower back?? weird. got home from library around 9pm and showered. tomorrow will be super busy as well and i’m super tired now (sleeping medicine thank GOD!!) and i’m gonna go to bed, curled up in my warm bed rn falling asleep as i type this out. gotta stay on that grind tho 🙏🙏🙏 tomorrow is another day!!! yay!!! 🩷🩷

salad was so mid im never getting one from the mini market AGAIN 👎👎👎calls itself a cobb salad yet only gives two eggs??? WHO DOES THAT???

i found this app on instagram, it’s a pomodoro timer-music app that can be downloaded on both computer and phone. it’s okay if you have the free version, but suffers from the “stuff advertised is locked behind a paywall” so that really stinks. pros! > has multiple options for music, and background noise. you can have rain sounds, fire sounds and others and dictate how loud each one is. as well as different backgrounds. > has a pomodoro timer, calendar which can be linked to google or outlook calendars, and to do list for time blocking. > very simple setup, easy to navigate. > widgets (limited if you have free version) cons! > lots of things locked behind paywalls, certain backgrounds and abilities which are advertised are locked behind a paywall: if you’ve linked your google calendar, it will only show your primary calendar and you’ll have to pay to see others. which, for me, doesn’t work considering i have multiple calendars for different courses. > another paywall feature, you cannot change the type of task if you want to give it a tag or organize it unless you pay. all tasks are listed as ‘unassigned’ as a default. > limited to 3 tasks and projects for free vers. overall, good idea for an app and it does work for me in the short term as i’m less likely to get sidetracked like i am on youtube, but also, half of the things the app offers can be found on youtube… sooo…. not missing out on much.

today was a huge improvement from yesterday. i woke up at 7:45 am today!! finally on time!! but omg my hairdye has been staining so much of everything,, woke up today with a pink neck and pink all over my face but i accepted this when i dyed my hair so it’s alr c: i stopped by the library with one of my friends from creative writing and was able to get a little done, though it wasn’t a lot because allergies (i think???) kept making my eyes itch and i could nottt see whatever was on my computer but whatever. the weather was nice and sunny with a little breeze and i wanted to appreciate it before it turned hot and humid and everything evil. spent the rest of the time in the library and i lowkey locked in for studying for my ASL quiz tomorrow morning, but i really needed to go over stuff for my biology lab quizzes and i didn’t 😔instead i spent the rest of my days setting up notion for the hundredth time and getting excited about the future planning. (someone save me from this awful cycle, i will never learn). also pikmin bloom goes HARD??? tomorrow is another day 🩷

maternal feelings for pikmin. meet my babies red thing, buttplug, clemmy and stinky. here they come world be kind to them ❤️❤️

made some oatmeal for breakfast since i have so much of it left in my cabinet and i added some cinnamon sugar and maple syrup to it and it’s so good!!! i know it’s basically just sugar but idc idc. also no way to get a picture of oatmeal without it looking like pure slop so i just took a photo of the box 😭

gonna be so real, today was a big bummer. i didn’t wake up till really late and didn’t leave the house until 3pm to go to the library. i got assignments for ASL done but other than that?? nothing. really just bummed out about it. but on the other hand, trying out notion again because obsidian is just,, a huge ass headache i’m sorry. i’ve tried it and i just can’t figure out what im doing. i HATEEE its inclusion of AI, though, and how it’ll be gone if it ever gets deleted. tomorrow is another day… 💔

snippet of my poem for creative writing, titled: ‘a letter to my childhood dog’. pls be kind i am nawwwtt good at poetry and its my first draft. a letter to my childhood dog. may 15th, 2022. it wasn’t supposed to happen like this, quick— fleeting— silent it was supposed to be planned—in a vet's office while we cradled you, whispering “good boy” and giving you chocolate because it was your last day. it was my idea—that you should be set free of the suffering you endured. i miss you. instead, i wake to my mother's sob of sorrow as she leads me to your dead body, and instead of being sad, i thought to myself: “thank goodness,” i thought, “you aren’t in pain anymore.” except: i didn’t say goodbye. i miss you. grief is a funny little thing. taking up corners of the room, filling the air with silence in your absence. i call your name, only the wind answers. is it you? i wonder. expecting you to come running around the corner. except-- i wonder, were you scared? did you feel alone? or was it like a dream you don’t wake up from? wake up, i miss you. i keep your belongings in a box stuffed full, i make sure to clean your urn and sit it atop the mantle. when you slip from my mind, i look at it and stare, i don’t ever want to forget about you. sam. sammy. samson. my childhood dog. i miss you.

this movie is sooooooo good in some parts and falls off in others but it’s an absolutely heart wrenching watch and this sense of loneliness and isolation and self-loathing for past mistakes is so so powerful. the roof scene? where shoya’s life flashes before his eyes? absolutely terrifying and relatable.

feels like all i ever post about is food oh my days 😭but this is the ramen i had from last night bc i couldn’t finish it (i forgot that it’s spicy and my spice tolerance is in the NEGATIVES!!!) and i added some sour cream bc i lowkey cannot eat it without my eyes watering and stomach hurting 😔😔THATS A ME PROBLEM THOUGH THE FOOD IS BOMB!!!

such a good day!! martha came over and helped out with my hair and it turned out SO WELL!! i’m so so so happy with how it turned out and so so grateful for them 🙏🙏 ordered dinner and probably going to go to sleep soon since i stayed up wayyy too late last night but i have a stomach ache :((( long day tomorrow (studying, yay!) tomorrow is another day! 🩷

got myself some ramen and wintermelon tea for dinner but i forgot to take a photo (thank you random doordash reviewer for the photo). i LOVE the eggs in them (i got three extra LMFAO) they’re so good i will eat like 40 in a row.

ABSOLUTELY LOVED how it came out!!! shoutout again to jewel-thief for the brand name!! i ended up only using the unicorn hair brand as it advised against mixing dyes, but i’ll use the ion dye for re-dying it. my hair looks red on camera but it is pink irl (can kinda see it in the second photo). i wish i did a few pieces on the top to kind of blend a bit but other than that it looks so good! also only mildly stained my skin but was super easy to clean up!! also it shows up as red on camera for some reason but the color i used was chocolate cherry :3 edited to include a photo of it in actual lighting bc my iphone camera keeps picking it up as red TT^TT pls lmk what yall think!! im so curious ~

PRETEND OTS STILL FRIDAY IM JUST LATE 😭😭 today was pretty good actually! FINALLY got my hair dye (the original dye is still in my mailbox smh). did a bunch of cleaning and laundry immediately after i got home from classes. had some BOMB sushi for lunch (that i forgot to take a picture of rip). it was crispy hot honey salmon and ouughhh it was so good. trying to not fall into a pit of depression so i made myself go outside and workout to just,, get myself moving and not rot in my bed. watched a bunch of sadboyz podcast bc i just LOVE listening to them, jarvis and anastasia’s banter is SO GOOD when it happens oh and jordan’s there too ig (jk i love that british man). also got a 90 on my biology homework!! did nothing to my grade tho sadface. also getting into obsidian more and trying to get more used to how it works, such a huge learning curve for it but i’m determined to figure it out. saturday will most likely be super chill but i’m planning on picking up the slack on sunday. tomorrow is another day ❤️

fell a bit behind on my journaling bc i fell asleep early 😭😭oh well. want to get into more of a schedule with walking because it makes me feel so accomplished and i LOVE it!!! worth the effort x1000 over.

s2 e12 spoilers!! EMMA NOLAN MY BELOVED thank you dana for putting robby in his PLACE my godddd his respect for women is clearly.. eh.. could be a LOTT better but what do i know. robby telling al-hashimi about langdon’s drug addiction and just.. not saying anything else?? DANA I LOVE YOUUU you deserve a break oh my god why is robby drillinf her ass ohh nvm they’re talking about his sabbatical and dana calling his ass out bc he is CRANKYYYYY why r doctors so against their own advice brother YOU ARE SUICIDAALLLLL TALK TO SOMEONEEEE. dr santos’ surprise at his admission of letting whittaker house-sit? i have a feeling she knows…. i love the way dr. al-hashimi talks idk it itches my brain. lowkey… mckay and langdon friendship,, i see it in the horizons GUYS BELIEVE ME JUST WAITTT. robby telling everyone to see a trauma therapist? oh my god someone track his motorcycle that man is planning something. 72 hr old or SOMETHING. “because you’re the person who’s supposed to be here keeping this running while i’m gone.” yeah check that man intro a place IMMEDIATELY also santos back AWAY FROM THAT SCALPEL DRAWER NO DO NOTTT— anyways. WHITTAKER CALLING SANTOS’ BLUFF ABOUT BEING HER ROOMMATE AWWWWW ROBBY AND MCKAYS TALK AT THE END THIS IS DEFINITELY SOMETHING love the medical accuracy of the pitt and just its ability to be super raw about the medical field and the lack of romantic relationships between the characters allows for the focus to be just on the doctors and it’s patients. UGHHHH ACCURATE MEDICAL DRAMAS I LOVE YOUUUUU

the goods have been secured!!! hair is being dyed tomorrow! i’m so excited to see how it turns out :)))

came on during my walk and holyyyyy molyyyu laylas vocals are a godsend

didn’t have a good photo today lads my apologies. but pretty good day today aside from my inability to just sit and study and not get much done today BUT i took shower and ordered my hair dye (god my hair probably hates me) so im oober excited for that. yoippee!!! tomorrow is another day 🩷

i really did not want to post this because i feel like i didn’t have a good study day. but i’m trying to be honest with myself first and so that comes with my sad admission of the fact that i only did like 1 hour of studying and work despite being at the library for 6 hours. however, in a sea of lows there is one high!! i was able to get my poem for creative writing finished and printed. might post it here if anyone’s curious (LMFAO probably no one). i’m not upset at myself, but i do realize i’m causing the problem. it feels like i have executive dysfunction, especially because im such a perfectionist, but i don’t have ADHD. when i take notes, it doesn’t matter what form: digital or physical notes, i have a NEED to make everything look perfect and when my handwriting isn’t the way it matches in my head i can’t focus on note-taking. it’s a problem and i really need to just,, forget notes needing to be some “pinterest worthy aesthetic” and that no one is going to be looking at my notes but me.