i really did not want to post this because i feel like i didn’t have a good study day. but i’m trying to be honest with myself first and so that comes with my sad admission of the fact that i only did like 1 hour of studying and work despite being at the library for 6 hours. however, in a sea of lows there is one high!! i was able to get my poem for creative writing finished and printed. might post it here if anyone’s curious (LMFAO probably no one). i’m not upset at myself, but i do realize i’m causing the problem. it feels like i have executive dysfunction, especially because im such a perfectionist, but i don’t have ADHD. when i take notes, it doesn’t matter what form: digital or physical notes, i have a NEED to make everything look perfect and when my handwriting isn’t the way it matches in my head i can’t focus on note-taking. it’s a problem and i really need to just,, forget notes needing to be some “pinterest worthy aesthetic” and that no one is going to be looking at my notes but me.