didn't expect this pretty ass day to end with me crying in my psychologist's office lol. today was supposed to be a chill coffee and cafe day, but things got heavy out of nowhere. i actually have regular appointments with my psychologist + psychiatrist already, but today wasn’t supposed to be one of them. this was... earlier than scheduled. but something triggered me so bad i just couldn't hold it in. so i started panic texting like 3 different clinics where my psychologist usually practices. "is Kak Alto available today?" to every admin. the second one replied, i immediately went "i'll take literally any available slot. any duration. omw." i think i was lowkey scared he already had a full schedule or something but yeah i rushed there. the second i walked into his room, i just completely broke down and instantly cried. can't even believe a day that started out so normal and peaceful ended up with an emergency therapy session. guess the coffee date will have to wait.