Something popped up on my TikTok FYP that I didn't want to see. I spent all this time repairing myself, thinking I was better, and it all came crumbling down because of one singular video. Then the self-sabotage came, the investigating, thinking some of the posts were about me... god damn it, I shouldn't have looked. I hate it, I hate everything and I haven't felt this pit in my chest in so long that I forgot I could even feel this way. That happened yesterday, at 6PM. Now it's 6AM and I'm struggling to sleep and I don't think I will for the next few hours. Maybe I need to make a new TikTok account cause the algorithm just fucking knows. But all of my moots :(