FORGOT TO POST THIS AUGHHH started off super rocky, i ended up getting up at 11am instead of 7am and i think that’s where my day fell apart. but i still made it to the library at 12ish. the coffee i made tastes AWFUL and it seems super watery? bummer. my focus is really dwindling and it’s still about the same as yesterday. i was able to get work for my portfolio that’s due next week done, however the stress from my exam on tuesday is still paralyzing me from even looking at it. ive blocked websites on my computer, put locks on apps on my ipad (where i take notes and do study guides), even time blocked but time seens to be going so fast yet everytime i look at the things i need to do, i just freeze like a deer in headlights. UGHHHHHHHHH THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING !!!!!!! starting to wonder if i have something because everytime i look up what im struggling with it brings up stuff with adhd?? however, i was tested in high school and they said i “acted like someone trying to get a diagnosis” and that because “my grades were pretty good”, there wasn’t anything to worry about. not self diagnosing in the slightest, but it has been a thought on my mind because ive never struggled with focus this bad before (though my mom says that im “easily distracted” alllll the time) and i just feel.. stupid.. i know realistically that isn’t true but i’ve struggled so much since starting college. it’s super disappointing to go from a 3.4 in high school to now a 1.5 in college and im going into veterinary medicine aka if you have a 3.0 or lower your chances at vet school are essentially zero. ANYWAY! this is super long and went completely in a different direction than what is supposed to be my day. took a shower and washed my hair, surprised to say, my color is STILL in!!! i’m super happy, and i think the specialized shampoo or whatever is really helping. each time i wash my hair, i notice less and less pink being rinsed out which HALLELUJAH!!! i’m trying to get this to last a good month or so before redying it with ION permanent brights. tomorrow is another day ❤️