got hardcover babel and the european cover of katabasis!! so happy happy :3 special thank u to my friend who got them for me in the netherlands! <33

participated in my first ever two day hackathon and won first place! enjoy some pictures of the free food we got while we were there :3

*pictures from google my bfs mom bought us guleh and tahoe lontong today and they were soooooooo good (⁠☆⁠▽⁠☆⁠) if anyone wants to ever try javanese food i definitely recommend these two!

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"So real." That's all I could think when I was reading this book. The relationship between Sloane and Ethan felt so familiar. Complicated, messy, and full of emotional uncertainty. It's the kind of connection where you want more but don't know how to ask for it. The push and pull, the hesitation, the longing. It all felt true. The alternating perspectives let me see both sides of their tangled story. The way they drift and collide, the closeness and distance, the mix of hope and confusion. This isn't a story about perfect love or easy answers. It's about the kind of relationship that shapes you, even if it doesn't last. It hurt. But it also made me feel seen because I went through the same thing.

beef balls were a definite 10/10 !

I don't think I will ever get over this book. Normal People hit way too close to home. The push and pull, the silence, the way everything feels both right and wrong at the same time. It was all too familiar. Connell and Marianne's relationship is messy and frustrating, but it is real. I saw myself in the way they kept coming back to each other, even when it did not make sense. The miscommunication, the longing, the quiet heartbreak. Definitely one of my all time favorites.

I did not think I could love Eden and Josh more than I already did. But this book proved me wrong. The Way I Am Now is quiet and powerful. It is about healing, about learning how to live again, about choosing love even when it feels impossible. Eden's growth is slow and messy and beautiful. Josh is patient and kind and exactly what she needs. Their relationship felt real in every way. I cried. I smiled. I held my breath. This story gave me hope. It reminded me that healing is not perfect, but it is possible. Josh and Eden are everything to me.

I read this book in one sitting. I could not stop. The Way I Used to Be is raw and painful and so deeply real. Eden's story is quiet and loud at the same time. It broke my heart in small pieces. The writing is simple but powerful, and every chapter felt like a punch to the chest. I wanted to protect her. I wanted to scream for her. I wanted her to be okay. This book does not offer easy answers. It just shows what it means to survive.

currently listening

so sad they cancelled this show, its so good 😣

probably on my 50th rewatch rn

I honestly didn't expect Babel to hurt the way it did. It is not just a story about magic and language. It is about belonging, about being torn between worlds, about how love and loyalty can break you. I felt every moment in my chest. Robin's pain, his confusion, his anger, it all felt so real. There were times I had to stop reading just to breathe. The writing is beautiful, but it is the emotion underneath that wrecked me. It changed something in me. Rebecca is such an amazing author.

R.F. Kuang continues to amaze me with her storytelling. This book is sharp and darkly funny, but also uncomfortable in a way that makes you think. It dives deep into race, identity, and the publishing world with brutal honesty and clever satire. Kuang has a real talent for writing characters you love to hate, and June Hayward is the perfect example. She is arrogant, entitled, and completely shameless, which made me frustrated at every turn. But that is what made her so interesting. I was fully invested in watching her unravel and face the consequences of her actions.

This book broke me. I thought I was ready, but I wasn't. Rin’s final chapter is violent and painful and so deeply human. Watching her fight, fall, rise again, and lose everything made me feel hollow and proud and angry all at once. The cost of power, the weight of identity, the endless cycle of war, it all hit harder than I expected. There is no peace here. No comfort. Just truth. And it hurts. I finished the last page and just sat there. I didn't move. I didn't speak. I just felt everything. I loved it. I hated it. I needed it.

This was my first R. F. Kuang book and it shook me. Rin's story is painful and honest and it felt like I was right there with her through every moment. The way she changes, the things she survives, it all hit me hard. I was not prepared for how dark and real it would get. The scenes in Golyn Niis and everything that followed broke something in me. I understood her anger. I understood her choices. Even when they're morally wrong. This book is everything.