such a goated movie

(10AM) we finally went to the dentist ! basically, i had braces before and after that, my past dentist inserted a fixed retainer at the back of my teeth since it has a risk of going back to the front.. but thenn that retainer snapped and my tooth started going back to where it once was :( with my new dentist, she explained that the tooth relapsed so there was nothing we could do to bring it back to the front. she proposed that she'd make removable retainers (for stabilization) for me, but it would cost a total of 8,000PHP for both the up and bottom teeth. i said i'll think about it first .. :") after that, we went to a mall and i finally got to try this ramen :) it was delicious !! and i had a side of gyoza with red drink. wish my stomach wasnt so sensitive to iced drinks :( then we bought belgian waffles (tuna + ranch) and coco drink (salty cream milk tea) ! hung out for a while with the sunlight, then roamed around once more. after that we checked out the makeup shops hahaha. we went to sunnies studios (found a LOT of AMAZING products. the glittered highlighters, powder bronzers, lip sticks, and more). after that, we went to watsons to check out timephoria ,, and surprisingly the shade 09 ENIGMA of their lippie suits me a lot ! i'm still a bit in denial that i'm a cool tone. then we went to the department store and explored more. we sawww this beautiful revlon lip balm (shade 461) it was perrrrrrfect. we checked out a lot of brands actually! anua, axis y, clio, skin1004, glad2glow, mediheal and a loooot more other international brands. we were like kids gawking at candy. in the end, i ended up buying an eyelash curler since that's what i was looking for. we got home at around 6PM hehe, now i gotta lock in for my quizzes <3 today was a lot of fun as usuaaall, i got to learn which shades suit me and which aren't meant for me. surprisingly, vampy shades suite me !! i needed this hangout .. and ik i talked a lot ab wanting to be independent but i just cant help it 💔 i really needed to go outside and away from my room. if we didn't meet up then i would have probably forced myself to go into a cafe to study rather than rot in bed again. my mind is clearer now, and i finally took a breath. finals are coming soon so i have to toughen up a lil more and hold out a lil longer. 💪

went on my first hike today ! according to my phone we did 28km. im leaving it at that for now bc i still have modules to do and its due in 3 hours ☹️👎 i am so tired but it was so worth it

i loved both of thesee, it's my first time eating pesto pasta in a while :) and i tried laksa ,, both of them together hits so wellll

im addicted...

GOATED

<3

not yet done .. i have no option to play this game atm so i'm just watching gameplays so i can see ada and leon ❤️ they appear after this one tho, but i wanted to start the franchise from the beginning :) so far it is indeed.. unlocking doors. i mean it is a mansion 😭 the gameplay i'm watching is timed at 7hrs and im currently 1h/7h. i stopped watching bc i wanted to watch hamilton, and i was about to finish when my service provider crashed doooown and the signal went to 0. im not shocked, just more disappointed bc i feel like i got scammed. i paid a lot for 1 month of unli data yet all this time, i only received a reaaaally slow signal, it's so bad that i can't even send messages in messenger ..? thankfully i have 2 sim cards so i'm using the other one atm. :) tho this one's limited, i have lots of downloaded series to watch like the pitt ! it's really good atm, i usually watch it when i'm doing something else.

second book i've finished like ever, got into it bc i saw a reco from yt and my attention span was so cooked. this took me 10 days to finish since i was also binge watching harry potter on the side while trying to make the most of my semestral break. i do love it :( it broke my heart a bit, and i cried while writing my thoughts about this. since i finished this on a bus and it was around 2am, i had to keep it all in lol so i thought writing about it would calm my mind and redirect my attention to forming proper sentences. i had planned to rewrite my thoughts about the whole thing but i never really got around it as school had already started and i immediately got bombared with school works, honestly do not have any plans to rewrite it any time soon even if i had time because unfortunately i'd rather spend it on playing games or reading mangas ..

bitin

ill come back tom hehehehehehehehe i will try .. i hadd probably like my last class of the sy today .. wasnt really a class cuz they called it culminating but it was all about picture taking 🕴🏻 and we didn't get any certificates yet bc our prof didn't make em yet.. idk when we'll be able to get it cuz😭 school's already closed man.. anww i went home and ate nearby thenn i got food coma and i woke up atound 5-6pm and then i bought 20pc sushi again 😇🙏 now im super full hehe it was rlly good but i think i wanna puke now .. i do like cheese but ifl there was so much and too much for me plus my drink was dairy based 😭 aahaha im gna sleep soooon, im planning to get my voter's reg tom but we'll see c:

i've not logged on in here in a long tiiime heheh i was busy with finals ;p tonight im planning to do our course output then meet up with a friend tomorrowww, either way i'll be staying at a cafe the whole afternoon :>

tried to get a hold of myself but i just kept passing out again 🤠 only woke up for my online classes to which i was both late for 🤠 its 8pm and i ordered food to eat bc i dont have strength bahaha i HAVE to lock innnnnnn

the day is not over yet but gotta update here

for years on end, i kept on suppressing myself. a thought, pushed onto the back of my mind. an action, even out of kindness, dismissed because of my what ifs. before i turned 18, my biggest question was, how great would i become in the future? which then turned to - how would i become great in the future? i did anything and everything to keep myself from being me, it was so bad that i basically stopped existing if other people were not around me. when left alone, i would lay down on my bed like a lifeless doll. i, who once could write entire paragraphs of essay on any topic i found interesting, found that pen turned against me. i became someone who could not even think of an opening. an introduction. i have only recently acknowledged that my speech is terribly stunted. speech, texts, words, anything that had to do with communication. which was odd, since i once loved to do that. my ideas are all over the place and there is nothing i could do properly. i keep stuttering as if someone has been physically stopping me from talking or speaking my mind. a way to combat this was communicating with my classmates. i'd share any interest of mine as long as there was someone who would lend an ear. in the middle of talking, i'd realise that i was not that boring after all, and that i really just needed to exercise my communication skills after being dormant for a long time. in my family, silence is power. this is one thing that has been engraved in me ever since childhood. and so i grew up to eventually abuse that power and emotionally and psychologically hurt the people around me, not fully aware of its severity. to this day, regret is all i feel and i do my best to make up for that. i live and i shall reflect, and become my own person. i am still learning and i will continue to do so. little by little and also learn control. until i can live by myself and love meeeee