Our classes will start at June 8, I'm kinda nervous and excited at the same time because I'm a transfer student and I'm afraid that I will not make any friends and I have to sit alone everyday. I will try my best to not make the same mistake of having the "shy student" reputation, they see me as the shy, quite (one even joking said that I bared talk so why bother asking me?, we are doing a group work), weird student:) I still managed to be a honor student with the rank of 7 in our class, I have to make it to the top 3 this time. I will give my blood, sweat and tears for this. I have to make it, I need to prove them wrong. I would rather cry while doing school works than comfortably scrolling through my phone. Wish me luck guyz🫶🏻

We came to my younger sister's school for her enrollment, it was the same school I attended for almost 10 years. Walking around the school, I felt peaceful. There are little kids running around, parents talking about their childrens, teachers assisting parents and students, the wind blows makes it even better, I can barely feel the heat. There's so much memories in that school, 10 years worth of memories. That school saw me laughing, crying, insisting, trying, hurting- physically and mentally, that school saw my mother putting a medal on me. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time where I considered it as my second home.

last friday, we had a group activity in cpar and i was the one to present it (presenters are randomly assigned), well all i need to do is to read but i messed up so badly🥺 i'm not nervous at all but when i faced them... i started shaking😭 i'm stuttering and they can't even hear my voice💔 my teacher gave me a mic because my classmates can't hear me and she noticed that i'm shaking and told me to inhale exhale and told my classmates to close their eyes🥹 they just did it like a couple of seconds, some of my classmates cheered for me but i don't know😭 (palamon nalang ako sa lupa huhu) i almost cried after my presentation but i tried so hard not to because i don't want to make a scene🙂 this always happens when i'm presenting or reciting something. i feel like everybody is judging me... whenever i remember all those memories of talking in front of alot of people, i want to cry so bad🥹

My birthday is in 9 days (july 28) and I'm feeling so emotional rn (I'm actually crying because of a video I saw in tiktok, he's celebrating his birthday alone and bought a slice of cake for himself, even sang happy birthday and he became emotional). Why am I feeling emotional? I can't remember the last time someone sang me happy birthday, give me even a small gift, greet me happy birthday personally, greet me at exactly 12:00 even in messages (I do this to my friends and family), or even the last time a had a cake for me. I remembered when I went to my best friend's house to celebrate her birthday, She had a cake with her favorite color and flavor, she had gifts, she have her friends invited, everyone's wearing her fave color, she parents greeted her and even hug her. I'm so jealous but I mean nothing bad about her, I just simply want to experience that too... Well I don't want my parents to spend money on my birthday because I know there are more important things my parents needs to spend on. But even a hug would make my day, just a hug and I'll be happy. I pray for a hug, it's fine if i don't get to eat a cake or have gift, all I need is a hug, pleasee.