Looking through clouds and listening to YOASOBI. From time to time I remember that I don't know how to tell a story. I don't think my art does and this fact really makes my artistic self feel incomplete

Currently raising my digimon. These kinds of ficklenesses help me going through my rough days

Finally, after a long time, I had a very good day. I went to a workshop and I made a lantern with washi paper, I even painted the 青竜, my favourite dragon, and I recieved compliments for it. I even managed to have a really quick chat with the japanese women that was running the workshop, I tried to overcome my boundaries, without showing off too much, and I really felt like I was living. Like I had lived. Life does not get lighter, I just hold my breath less.

It has been a rough day. I was reminded of my flaws, of my depeest and unrealizable desires, of my distance. I tried to get the best of the day, I did acknowledge my emotions.

I'm slowly getting better, I did tighten the lid of my head a bit more and the malestrom of thoughts finally slowed down. Today I sketched without any other thoughts. Not preparations, not study, just sketching. It's been a long time since I've done that.

Christmas as an adult kinda sucks. Life goes on, and so do I. Funny enough, in front of the church there was that triquetra made of pebbles

I've greeted the two people I love the most in the morning, then I spent the rest of the day with my family. I did my best to not let things go heavy

We always overthink about the same old things over and over again. Even if life gives us new stuff to think about, even if it's more important, we still think only about old things. I'm going to change my little things. So I can notice the new.

9:30 PM eerie, on a balcony; a cigarette

and another one is coming. I feel scared and confused. Most of it's about my degree and my thesis and that's fine, I guess. I don't want to escape anymore. At least, not in the way I've always done.

First week and a half of this new year. I'm rushing through it and taking it slow at the same time, I think I finally got my habits right. Between Chinatown and birthday parties I fixed the first pendant I have ever owned and my leather boots. It feels right to take care of small things.

It was a nice day. I broke one of my greatest bad habits and I wrote the introduction of my thesis. I'm still a bit worried, but I'm raising my pace to get the job done.

It's not been an easy day. Mostly related to personal and family health stuff, but at least I worked more on my thesis. I began taking everything with more calm in mind. Conversation, chores and other activities. I will not let anyone disturb my inner peace, not anymore. Today I noticed it, I really am pulling it off. (my 8 years old self would be proud of me, I guess)

I finished studying the finds for my thesis! It's really stressfull right now, I have to write a lot and I don't really know what I'm doing because I'm not thinking through it too much. I also hung out with my gf and we spent the rest of the day walking in chinatown, then we met a friend of mine for their birthday. We went to a really nice bar! Cozy and small, we ate a small chunk of chocolate cake

A friend of mine invited me to go hearing a concert featuring lotr and got soundtracks, I don't really care for Game of Thrones but it was fun! They were a string quartet and I think they did a great work on the adaptation of the themes.

I really worked hard today. I followed my schedule and I even managed to get done a bit more. Right now I'm on the train, heading home. I'm reading a book and listening to Ryo Fukui; if you like jazz, you have to check it out.

Last day, While my partner and I were baking pretzels (they turned out really soft and tasty btw) my mind drifted away and I found myself thinking about all of the knowledge I want to learn in the short period of time after my degree. I want to draw better and I want to really put my effort in learning new languages, as well as learning how to write properly. It is said that life is not a movie, but I'm going to make sure I'll be a movie character as sure as the sky is not really blue.

Another step forward. I started once again to work out, a bit seriously, and I want to regain my old habits. I guess my thesis and what's happening in my life lately are draining my brain out, but I will remain positive. I am managing what I can and, especially, what I cannot control.

A slow sunday. I sent my first abstract and I 'excavated' a little echinoid fossil. It's been a nice day, but I felt a bit odd for some stuff that went on my mind

I really am missing out watching films. It feels like I don't have that kind of inspiration to sit on the couch and watch them and it's really bumming me out. I have some type of list but I really want to watch some new stuff I've never had.

that I won't ever be able to hear Dire Straits live. Damn it. I remember the first time I listened to two whole albums in one ride, I bought my first walkman on auction and it came with a musicassette of Private Investigations and Brothers in Arms. I listened to them while doing chores and I nearly reached nirvana (even though I was listening to dire straits // pun intended)

Today I was really, really tired. But I still pulled it off. My supervisor praised my growth and my writing style (even though I am not Thomas Mann). I also found the old magatama charm I thought I lost! According to my supervisor, I was focusing way too much on scientific analysis and I was slowly losing the big picture in which those analysis can be put in. I was, kinda, feeling it too, and it was nice to be 'seen' in this way.