i'm not even done yet with the movie. that's how good it is

Yudino 🫶🏼i love his OPM R&B

song of hope and despair

the movie was doggy doo doo

how i feel when the most mundane things give me a small dopamine boost

This movie was amazing. Tommy goes back to his captors because he does not have control, it was him giving up control that's what first led him to using drugs, "taking a holiday" as he puts it, and he goes back to the family to shield him from the reality that his REAL family didn't give a shit about him. They didn't even file a missing person's report. He's once again taking a holiday from his life, except this holiday was conditioned into him by his captors. Both protagonist and antagonist gets what they want. The movie reminds me of Whiplash, in that sense. It makes me think back onto people's relationship with work, a lot of people use work as a buffer between them and their emotions. We get structure, rules, routine, supervision, rewards, and punishments. The safeguard of predictability makes things make sense. I hated my previous job, but I find myself wanting less responsibility for my independence. Corporate life sucks. I'm stripped of autonomy, I'm reduced to good and bad, I only have to conform... and I personally don't like that. I hate relating everything to work but it's true. The movie makes you realize that replacing one addiction for another is part of recovery. Tommy had his identity provided to him by that family. And we ultimately accept these provided identities for us when we relieve ourselves of control. When we bend to abusive authority to survive. We internalize and we don't know who we are from what we're told to be. Don't get me wrong, Tommy isn't a good person, but just like anyone, he deserves to make good on his own accord. And what he does at the end isn't. He brings his girlfriend back to the fucking family wtf! Yes, i know he wants to help her but this stockholm syndrome conditioning bullshit isn't rehabilitation. He was not learning how to stand on his own two feet, he was being conditioned to assimilate the identity of someone else.

little kitty waiting for me with a random youtube video playing cause i left my computer turned on

i'm sorry 😞I was so excited when I saw the MV on my Recommended Feed on YouTube because ANYMA and LISA collabed??? MY TWO WORLDS SUDDENLY COLLIDING? But the song was ass 😢 I'm going back to listening to Anyma's other music help 💔

meow 😸

No spoilers: I loveeee this game. I haven’t experienced “pure” exploration in gaming since my Minecraft days tbh. Yes, I’ve played other open world games but most games have big red arrows or maps/way points that make game progression linear and it also inadvertently prevents you from fully taking in and understanding the map + the game doesn’t also have an in-game map!! You have to rely on map awareness, your sense of direction, and the beacons you have to manually place. Exploring Sunbautica’s biomes also feel very rewarding. The world is immersive, maybe it’s just my major fear of the open ocean, but it’s more than just the game being about the ocean. You have to read the logs and investigate, the story goes hand in hand with the hands-on gameplay. I haven’t finished the game yet, so the rating is based on my first full 30 hours of gameplay. I’ve progressed pretty decently and I’ve always taken my time on my base lol. I heard Subnautica 2 is releasing its early access in a month or so?? Omfgggggggggggg WAITTTT I HAVEN’T FINISHED THE GAME YET AND I HAVEN’T MET THE OTHER LEVIATHANS 😳

Kesha ily for writing this ❤️ snsd didn't miss with releasing this

Not only is my brain fried, my computer decided to actually FRY itself. I fucking hate Windows, man. But I also don't want to install linux. I don't have a supercomputer and I can't even UNINSTALL windows or reset it (I tried for 6 hours earlier). What else has been biting me in the ass lately? Questions, questions, and questions from everyone. About me. God, I don't want to think about anything related to love or work or anything philosophical (only exception are close friends/family that I don't need to explain lore to, because they already know the actual lore lol + I always leave extra energy for friends & family, esp if they need help.) I just don't like it when new acquaintances prod without forewarning (I didn't prepare any spoons for that, man). I'm already regulating through every nagging thought every second of every day plz don't go off script. One last thing biting me in the ass is nicotine withdrawals. I quit nic probably 200 times a week but I think I'm sticking to quitting now. I'm hungry and moody and the weather is especially hot nowadays—trying to keep my AC usage at the minimum with the ongoing war/energy crisis couldn't be any more timely. Oh, literature gods, where is the promised fantastical destiny I was promised lmao. Reap me from these earthly plains plz 🙏🏼

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the chorus is so good. i love songs that feel like a cold, night breeze in the city 🌃

my computer isn't as organized as these lol. i also need to declutter the work apps from my iphone. Also, Apple Music update: The algorithm has been alright but I miss Spotify. Qobuz, pls hurry up and release in the Philippines 🙏🏼

this has been my top song this week LMAAOOOOO i've been memorizing the entire dance 🕺🏻

Will do an update abt my IPhone's layout too hee hee hee I know the icons are so hard to read but I actually like it that way lol

i've fallen in love with this band

do i need to say anything more 💔💔 oh, rachel i think about you all the time